Too many timesI beat myself with sticks of judgment.Too many timesI Awake already drained of hopeToo many timesI give up without tryingToo many timesI am defeated by the ingrained pattern of my neuronsBut sometimesI note all the milestones I’ve crossedAnd sometimesI remember that They said judgment is reserved to GodAnd sometimesI am able to cultivate […]
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Inflation of the Self
Inflation of the self completeTaking time in the morning to complete affirmations, hypnosis, exerciseSmooth and perfect your moodUnpin the anger from the voiceUnpin the anger from the everythingUnpin the selfUnpin Take the wording yourselfWind it up like a music boxThe words, they do not comePut it away for later
Bits & Pieces
143-2 days sober. Did not have a good time in those two days. But it’s all feeling kinda ‘what’s the point?’ even now. Had to stop the new medication that really amped up the ‘what’s the point?’ feelings. I guess… no pill for the adhd is availabe for me yet; i’ll try the strattera but […]
Temporary Clouds
Things pass through your mind like islands Glowing and catching the windowsill sun Like diamonds patching through your calls to icebergs Two textures of mind, one feeling of self In the coherence Out of the coherence Randomizing tests Letting it flow Letting it be empty Taking up subjects …Bring your ‘Creating Poetry’ book next time […]
Turning Off the World
Antisocial activities Shutting out the world and drinking Turning off the caring Just blissfully Turning Down the Volume But there’s an ant in the bliss You know it can’t last And burns all in its wake I write this 103 days sober Today is a bright new day
Permission
You have my permission to disregard the meditation I wrote and do something else: /// Like / Walk along the side of a stream endlessly / Like / Go through a laundry list of affirmations in your head, examining and discarding each one / Like / Planning your to do list / Like / Trying (and failing) to just watch your breath and think no thoughts / Like / Criticize yourself for doing the meditation all wrong [….]
Emptiness (and a grain of salt)
[…] One of the many things we could say instead of — /
— instead of “I hate my stupid life” /
Confronting a memory /
Confronting a hypothetical /
Confronting other peoples’ theoretical thoughts about us /
Confronting ‘what if I had done it that way instead?’ /
All these emotions come and go, passing like ships, or birds, swiftly by […]
Song / Words, that Stick in your Head
Meditate on it — /
New words will come /
Take your time, don’t rush /
But what if /
like a stuck song /
they don’t? / / /
You are forced /
to work with /
what you have’/
and proceed /
from there.
Good Movie: The Big Short
It’s free to watch. About the people who predicted the 2007-08 subprime mortgage lending financial crisis. [I don’t know why it’s age restricted; all the curses are silenced] One of the people in the movie who predicted the subprime crisis in 2007-08 is now betting against NVIDIA and Palantir https://lostinmist.blog/2025/12/05/good-movie-the-big-short/https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cvdjXCCHdSQ Wikipedia: “In late 2025, Burry […]
Lost in Mist 