Too many times
I beat myself with sticks of judgment.
Too many times
I Awake already drained of hope
Too many times
I give up without trying
Too many times
I am defeated by the ingrained pattern of my neurons
But sometimes
I note all the milestones I’ve crossed
And sometimes
I remember that They said judgment is reserved to God
And sometimes
I am able to cultivate small joys
And sometimes
I know myself too well to think making demands and flagellation will bring result
So sometimes
I commit myself to making space for the new to enter
And this time
I swear off YouTube and video games as well
“WHEN will the lesson be learned!?” – Winston Churchill in the movie Darkest Hour
Lost in Mist 